It's at times like this when it's late at night and so very quiet, that I feel the most lonely. I think it may be because I have been so blessed in my children and their chosen mates, so blessed with my grandchildren. They are so bright and full of life and love. I miss very much the laughter and smiles, and even the constant activity and turmoil. They are all so far away from me now and it makes me ache sometimes.
It's times like this that make me second guess myself and some of the decisions I've made in my life that impacted my children and family. Was I right in my decisions or did I take the easy way out; did I raise them the best I knew how or was I more friend than mother. I am continually amazed at how smart my children turned out to be... in spite of me...or maybe because they learned from my mistakes what not to do.
I want you all to know how proud I am of my children, I don't think I ever can say it enough. I am proud of who they are and the wonderful people they turned out to be.
I guess I'm just feeling my mortality tonight. It's been a bad body day and suddenly I just felt I should let you all know how much I love you. I guess that all for now...Monday draws to a close and Tuesday's coming up the drive. Sweet dreams!
Love Me
